Ho'dang. How long has it been, really? That's right. It's been too, too long now that I can't even remember when was the last time I did this thing called '''blogging'''
Truthfully, I don't even know what made me 'come back' here. Because I'm not the type of person who sticks to one thing til the end. I mean like, well let's put it this way. I don't usually finish what I started. I usually left things hanging, left things unsaid, I just, left.
But now, yeah. Why the hell am I here when I know sooner or later, I will stop blogging and sharing thoughts here. That, I'm not even sure myself. Maybe I'm doing this out of boredom, maybe I'm blogging this because I miss it, or maybe because I feel like I need to practice my amateur writing skills. Or maybe, just maybe, I will try to start blogging and planning not to stop and just leave things hanging like I used to. Maybe I'm trying to re-anew my 2014 hopes and wishes. Which is to finish what you started. Or to restart the things I left behind and complete it. Who knows, there's too many maybes and possibilities.
Anyway, how's 2014 been treating you? January's coming to an end. February is approaching. Wow, a month on a new year almost pass by. There's no doubt, that time really flies. Honestly, I don't feel freshed and new this year. Not yet, I think.
The only thing that changed is, I don't have to go to school anymore. I don't have to wake up at 630am everyday no more. I don't have to rush for school, crossing my fingers in the car to not be late for school and getting punished for it. I don't have to do all the things I used to for years anymore. It sure feels awkward at first. Like, "eh? really? is this for real? my years as a high school student has really ended? r-e-a-l-l-y?" The answer is obviously, a big fat yes. But the real question is, how do I feel about it? Happy? Sad? Both? Yeah, the third one. Both. I'm happy that I don't have to shoulder all the responsibilities that I'm obligated for all these times. Like, really, now I can rest my shoulders and rest all I want. Because man, senior year sure is an exhausting, hectic, busy, busy busy year, all year. From being the co class monitor but had to act like the class monitor coz the class monitor is a guy and he's a lazy ass and he depended on me for everything and also, my class teacher just wont let me go easily for he needs me all the time to help him with everything. I'm like da'fricken'bomb at multitasking both as a student and a pro secretary. Like really, it's like I'm a part time student, part time worker. You have no idea how crazy my senior year is. Not even kidding. But Sad, yeah I'm sad. That I now don't see all the familiar faces no more. I miss the cheap canteen food, working at koperasi, meeting my friends everyday, cracking jokes with them, laughing at the teachers' lame jokes which they think really funny we just laugh out of sympathy but come to think of it, they're actually funny. Sports day, after school activities, everything. I miss all that.
Well I'm afraid I will drag this post to a five-page long, so I guess I shall stop here before my eyes will start to 'sweat' because really, I already miss school so much. Ok really, I'll stop. Assalamualaikum.
